Well well well…. I can only sit here and laugh laugh laugh laugh…serenity now…woossaahhhh…. Calm Blue Ocean…calm Blue Ocean…deep breaths… haha
Ok ok im not that upset about it, but I am shaking my head and laughing…was having a conversation with God as the events of this morning were unfolding…
Ever wished or thought something would happen and then something did happen but it wasn’t quite what you asked for? …
Well you may have read my little story about train station crush guy, a guy that I have decided to stop having a crush on… yes I am trying to convince myself that I no longer have a crush on him.. but anyway point is that this guy is tall has strawberry blonde hair… he looks like he might be a nice guy – I think this because something about his eyes, smile and comportment that ive observed over the time ive been seeing him at my train station that makes me think… you couldn’t be an ass**** … As ive mentioned before I am quite a happy, friendly chatty person except that I can be exxxttreeeemeelly shy when it comes to be around men that I am interested in..
So anyway id been having my conversations with God, as you do, and I was telling him about this guy and wanting to know why on earth I am attracted to a man that I don’t even know, that the most we have ever said to each others was when he let me leave the train before him and it went like this; him: “after you” and me: “thanks *insert shy big smile*” (which had me thrilled for days that I actually had an interaction with him, yeah I do sound pretty juvenile I know!… do ya see why ive decided to stop crushing on this guy!)… But I am digressing…
Well… 2 weeks ago this other man on my train started a conversation with me and been the friendly chatty person I am I went along with it… then another day I was at a market and he saw me and he said hello..so I responded back…. This morning I got up early and caught the earlier train, this man was on it. He caught up to me as I was walking to my office (which is about a 10-15 min walk) and he started to chat again, so I politely obliged… turns out he works in the building next to me..(damn it!) so he continued to ‘escort me’ as he put it.. I realised at this point that for some reason this guy thinks that he is charming me and proceeds to try and flirt with me…. I am soooooo uncomfortable at this stage… and I cant really walk away because I am heading that same direction! I tried but couldn’t get him to just go his normal way…no he had to walk my way… he kept saying things like ‘well I saw your stockings and thought to myself I know those legs’..WHO SAYS THAT TO A STRANGER!??? And the other comment ‘I own my own company you girls like that right’ WHAT THE?? Before these comments the conversation was ok… it was just one of those random chats you have with people occasionally… but he started to attempt to flirt more despite the obvious disinterest…
Then as we parted (thank God!) I realised… God so wanted to have a little laugh at my situation today..i mean look at the facts.. I have had a crush on a tall thin strawberry blonde young guy.. so he gives me a short,fat red head OLD man! ….God..seriously… funny yes, helpful no!… try again man! Wrong train guy! Ha-ha
